Woke

I woke, Sister

From the slumber I have been in all my life..

Sleep walked through heavy decisions,

Never understood the weightage of my existence

Drifted through years of women who judged me,

loved me, confused me, encouraged me, refused me, never included me…

So Woke, that I know I am the Universe in itself,

I can nurture, protect and grow  

I can love and smile and see through your shallow.

I forgive, I hug and I pray that I get the strength

To bear the responsibility of how Woke I am.

I woke, Brother

From the slumber I have been in all my life..

So woke, that I may have given you a fright.

My shimmer ain’t something most can deal with

I reflect what the truth is, I am fearless.

Oh I see your weak ass play.. I see it,and pretend to be surprised..

Cuz then I may have been drifting, but I was learning side by side.

I love you brother, don’t get me wrong. 

But damn, We all know meekness is harrassed by shortest shlong. 

Now I take care of my shit..

I take care of the house, the parents, the dog and my boo.

I am woke brother, No one saw that coming ..BOO!

I hunt, I conquer and feel no ounce of guilt.

Thats right my dear friend, all my fucks have taken flight.

Of course You can come near me, don’t worry I would never bite.

Cuz my Woke State is just another way of God shining her light!

Moving On...

I was fine.

I'm still fine.

Of course, I'm fine.

Look at me, I'm absolutely fine.

"I look at you and you're fine but it's your eyes... I see darkness ...which is twisted but there's a twinkle there too!" he said.

Damn!

Did this have to be 2017's first blog?

This is a rant,
So bear with me.

I strive, every single day, to not cave in...
To not be affected, to be the bigger person, to brush it off like it's only dust that floated from miles away and landed on my shoulder.... It's only dust, it's doing what it's meant to do. So I don't give it more importance than it deserves.

It's how I look at unreasonable, unfortunate and insane situations/ideas/people.
It's all dust, it'll settle. 'You just have to be patient'.

It's so easy to cave in though!
 To that side which wants you to curse, kick and scream, and react to ALL that is making you lose your mind, your sleep, and your peace of mind.
There's that little devil in you, luring you to that oh sooooo dark side... Making you feel weak for choosing to be the bigger person. Taunting you for taking the higher road. Laughing at you as you attempt to be graceful. Sneering at you as you get ridiculed while you CHOSE to keep it together.

It's so damn easy to cave in, to that dark, and painfully ugly side.

It's just a step away...

But then, I'll always take the road less traveled.
I'll always keep my conscience clear.
I'll always be honest.
I'll always confront the ugly with compassion.
I'll always be real.
and I will have compassion and never laugh when YOU fall flat on your face.

I strive, every single day, to be the person I want to grow up and look up to.