'That's what I must do right now'
And the 'that' that he spoke about, had nothing to do with her. It had to do with someone else, it had no connection to her. She wasn't a part of his life, his routine, his thoughts, his friends, his present or his world anymore. She wasn't even a speck in the the vast clusters of stars that created the universe that she had dreamed for the two of them.
Just like that, they were strangers.
Just like that, it ended.
She saw it coming months back, she knew he would walk away. She knew it felt too real for it to be real. She had mourned the demise of the relationship before it actually began, unaware of how sad she was as she met him. How sad she was every time he said good bye when he dropped her home, every time they looked into each other eyes, every time they kissed... and they kissed so well, she knew there may not be a next time she would feel so light in her head again.
She didn't realise how much she loved him and how quickly she fell for this boy.
She didn't know she was capable of loving someone ever again.
She had accepted that she may not fall in love again, and that was okay. She was okay being on her own as well. And she had come to terms with the fact that her life was never conventional to begin with, and her definition of what finding love was supposed to be maybe didn't exist.
All she did know, was that he would be difficult, and feisty and it would be exhausting to be with him. Still, she was ready to take the plunge. He had unknowingly, triggered a series of emotions that were lying dormant in her, which she had assumed dead.
She was ready to dive into the deep end and was happy that she needed no rescuing.
She was ready.
He wasn't.
At least not for her.
Days passed.
Emotions passed too. As they always do. Eventually there was a comfort in feeling numb. It was familiar territory, it was where she had lived for years...
Just like that, she felt like she was back home.
Just like that, it was ok to be okay again.
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